“My father destroyed my life… A never-ending story... I am asking for your advice.”

“My father destroyed my life… A never-ending story... I am asking for your advice.”
Thu, Mar 25, 2021, SashaDiarra

“How much longer will I suffer? I know this story will follow me for life but I need support and help but I can't find any ... Betrayals after betrayals, I hope for a better tomorrow...”

“I hesitated for a long time and here I am... I read a lot of testimonies and when I see the age of the stories, I tell myself that the story is really endless ... From the age of 8 or 9 to 19 years old, I was the victim of sexual touching and not only by my big brother. I had intercourse without penetrations with my big sister and my little brother... The thing had become a game that initially gave me strange feelings but that I enjoyed. I was a kid, I did not know the meaning of these acts but my executioner, the last and the one who completely annihilated me was my father. At the age of 14, he took me over and destroyed my life. He told me that he wanted me, he loved me ... I really wonder if he is my father (Lord my heart hurts, my head hurts, my eyes hurt). A year ago, I filed a complaint against him, initially my two older brothers supported my complaint and they ended up retracting. As for my sisters, my mother-in-law and my little brother, they all denied the facts. They made me sound like crazy, hysterical with a personality disorder. I lost all hope, that day I almost died, my thoughts were confused, I almost got run over, and luckily the driver was careful and honked. When I regained consciousness, I was almost naked in the street... (Yet I knew what was going to happen, things were predictable... When my father started his relentlessness, I tried to talk about it with my big sisters and the older one clearly said she didn't care). I don't understand, they were also victims ... Why are they reacting like this? Did they lie to me? Today, it's been almost 5 years that I live alone and that I live in a constant ill-being. I thought I was taking charge of my life but I didn't know things would be so horrible. How much longer will I suffer? I know this story will follow me for life but I need support and help but I can't find any ... Betrayals after betrayals, I hope for a better tomorrow...”